Welcome to the Chaos Pit, also knows as a research rabbit hole. I am one of those lovely people who figures out that she has an interest in something and then basically dives into it and unless someone come and knocks on my door I will totally forget about the outside world.
This total submersion into research doesn’t happen as often any more as I do have children and have to keep an eye out on them but that usually means after they go to sleep I start reading and about the time the sun comes up I realize I haven’t slept yet and now have to handle two well rested little ones. Coffee is my best friend on those days. Now I bet you are raising an eyebrow at the tangent. I promise it has a point.
Because I tend to overdo in one area it effects all areas of my life. I will neglect chores, avoid sleep and overdose on caffeine. (Yes its a thing, shakes, nausea, and various other symptoms have been recorded and that is a post for another time.) This effects my witch self too. Most of my study is in regards to my craft, sometimes that delves into areas of science and psychology. Currently I am looking into Tarot and Astrology, possibly followed by a Jungian Psychology chaser.
I believe it is great to have an active interest in things, and to follow the tangents as far as research goes because it helps us to develop as people, you can actually study yourself into being a genius, its nifty. But I have to remember to balance my need to research and consume new information with my life. Having my children around really helps remind me that I need to be present because they are always up my butt. Sometimes, watching them play and act out things has brought me shame, other times heartbreaking joy. Always though it tells me to take a moment, to step back from the books, the computer, and my phone. To go outside and enjoy the sunshine, enjoy a cookie or hell wrestle with the kids. Sometimes napping with them is the perfect break. My current greatest shame is I haven’t been reading to them before bed. In fact I let an app read to them more than I do. The app is great for days when I am not home for bed time. I can load the stories on a tablet and let it play for them. But I have started using it too much as a crutch.
So I say to you, look at your life, look at the things you do and see if you are spinning to fast to notice the things that matter, that bring your truth and your joy to the surface. Sometimes, taking five minutes to breath and find a single joyful thing can be the difference between burnout, and loving the life you live.
I hope you have found wisdom, or just food for thought here.